Concerns & Worries

So, I'm going to go and try my best to go and see my girlfriend. For real, this time. But why do I feel so worried about it?

She's a truly wonderful person, and she is currently the only thing really holding me together, keeping me away from having a full-blown nervous breakdown over everything, but I just can't stop feeling like this will end terribly for both of us, that my problems will be too much for her to handle, or that I would accidentally say the wrong thing, and make her upset at me. I do that too often, and I'm worried that the next time will be last.

I guess these are just normal worries which everyone and their cousin have, but they, and a few others which I am almost afraid to admit, will actually happen.

Perhaps this is what drives some people to drink... Not that I will, of course.

The tragedy in Japan

As most of you are aware, a tragedy has befallen the nation of Japan and its citizens. Not only has it been hit with a massive earthquake and tsunami, but the citizens are struggling to prevent a meltdown in several of their nuclear reactors. Just experiencing one of those natural disasters is a tragedy. All three of them at once in the span of a fistful of days is stressful for anyone. I beg of you to give to a disaster relief fund. Just a small amount of money would be useful.

On a similar note, I have heard many nasty things coming from people about these disasters, saying that it is "karmic retribution" from the Pearl Harbor attacks, or possibly from their whaling operations. These talks do nothing but anger people, and makes you look like fools. I beg of you to think before you say or type anything, and try to be mindful of others' feelings.

Here is a list of several organizations to donate to:

Mercy Corps: dial 888-747-7440, or go to http://www.mercycorps.org/donate/japan

American Red Cross: dial 800-733-2767, or go to http://www.redcross.org/

There are many other options, but those two organizations are probably the most reputable ones that I know of. You can go to any one you want, but I would be cautious if it is an organization you haven't heard of.

Reunited, and it feels so good...

So, I'm back together with my ex..

Now, before everyone starts rolling their eyes and telling me I'm making a stupid decision, hear me out. The reason I left her in the first place was because just about everyone online kept telling me that people from the Philippines are after one of two things: money, and/or a ticket to a better country for her and her family. After I left her, she remained single, and she kept on holding out for me.
Now, she is quite a beautiful woman, and if she applys a little make-up and flutters her eyelashes, she could easily find someone more handsome, richer, and, most importantly, employed.
But she kept on going for me, even knowing that I am dumpy looking, disabled, unemployed, and in debt up to my eyeballs.
That shows me that she doesn't care about money, looks, or anything of the sort. I still thought about her, even after leaving her. I am pretty sure I am making the right decision, and if not, then it is a good lesson for me.

*begins saving up for a passport renewal and a ticket to the Philippines*

Follow the leader

If there is one thing I learned in life, it's that there are two kinds of people: leaders and followers. If you ever get in a position where you have to lead, ask yourself: Am I a leader or am I a follower? I know there are times where I want to take the reins of a situation and make sure everything works out in the end, but my problem is that I do not have the ability to correct people when they do something incorrectly, and I cannot punish people. So I just sit on the sidelines and quietly follow the orders from the leaders... Maybe you can lead, but I cannot.

How fruatrating life is...

Hey folks... Sorry I haven't posted in a while.. Lots of crud going on. First of all, my best friend has pretty much told me not to speak to him ever again. He didn't give a reason, but his wife says I'm too immature.  Maybe I am, maybe I'm not, but it is no reason to just blow me off like that... Especially since we've been friends for so long.. And to think I was planning on giving them my car for less than half of what I paid for it...
In other news.... My ex girlfriend wants to get back together with me. Yes, the one in the Philippines. With all the emotional crap I'm going through, I need someone to be there for me, at least in thought....
Finally, I might not be moving to Louisiana after all.... A friend of my mother's is trying to get me a state job over here. While I appreciate it, I really want to go to Louisiana... And, last but not least, I missed mardi gras.. Sadface...

Still no place to live

Well, looks like my plans for moving to Louisiana in Mid-January are out of the question. I still don't have a place to stay, and I doubt I'd have one until February, which means I will probably miss Mardi Gras this year... and the delicious king cake... I guess there is always next year, and the year after that, and farther in the future...

Also, to those who were concerned about the reply I made in my last post, I managed to fix my car, and everything's perfect now! (with the exception for a very slight dent... Oh well.)

License!

Well, it's official. I have my driver's license. I can now feel the wind in my hair as I go 35 on the local back roads... Or I can go on the freeway and freak out... or something.

Don't mind my poor punctuation skills right now. I'm posting from my cell phone, in my swanky '93 Chrysler Concorde, listening to Dennis Miller, while waiting for my mom's boyfriend...

I'm going to miss this car...